Recovery Of "ME"

Recovering from another shitstorm created by me...
Another tale of denial,

untold to me.

Another page in the book goes unread.

Patience with myself tempers my "dis-ease" of addiction;
Breaking down to the root of a tree I cannot reach.

I'm loyal to a fault....

Here I am still fighting an invisible force that consumed me,

Spinning me into a chaotic reality that was,

oh so familiar;

yet I couldn't seem to comprehend...

I realized my tools were as unsharpened as the knife in my back piercing my heart.

Instantly I felt the need to simplify.

Just as the morning fog disappeared,

so did the need to complicate.

-I'm an addict in recovery praying for peace!

 -SAM HAM I AM-